FUTURE???

I feel so lost nowadays...
Finally I noe that I'm too immature 2 think about my future...
I dunno wad 2 study?

Firstly,
I choose graphic design...
It seems that no one is there 2 support me 2 take that course ...
People keep saying that it is useless n everything...
No future, low salary n blah blah blah...
But wad 2 do...
I love design!
N I will not actually give up even though i cannot take up the course!
U will see!

Secondly,
I wanna take up business...
And as usual...
Naggings again!
Business?
U thought it's very easy isit?
Do u have enough money 2 even start a business?
U won't have good future larh...
A lot of ppl are studying business !
U should try something more unusual!
Since u're 'smart'...

Finally I made up my mind,
I wanna study pharmacy！
Ok ,
This time finally I can c ppl supporting me
Ya, That good！
My dunno who who who is a pharmacist
And he can earn over 10k per month !
HAIZZZ...
But I'm not sure whether I wanna take up The sixth form or not?
Or should I take HSC?
Diploma in pharmacy?
Or wad?
Then I decided 2 try 4 the scholarship..
But....
Another but again!
My mom said that there r no good colleges in Penang !
I really dun understand her u noe?
Y must she listen 2 all her friends but not ME?
If all the colleges in Penang is bad,
THEN we shall ask the government 2 close down all the colleges !
Sweat case lah...


I feel so stress nowadays !
I dun get 2 study wad I want n I'm really hopeless now....
I dunno wad is my future going to be
N I shall pray hard n Ask God 2 bless me!
Will my future just ruin in my own hands or wad?
I really dun wanna grow up!
I still wanna be a kid !
Dun have 2 worry about anything n everything!

But sometimes I really thinks...
I cannot actually be so selfish...
I'm the eldest in the family and I have the responsibility 2 choose something that is better 4 me
N show good example 2 my siblings!

I really hope that someone can help me...
I'M REALLY HELPLESS........................