Decided.

Finally,
I have made my decision.
Form 6 !
No choice ...
Argue with my mum for a few days?
Cold war...
So what?
I still lose...
How I wish dad n mum can understand me more...
I had already tolerate n I still dunno wad they want...
Mum keeps complaining about my results.
She is not satisfied !
She keeps blaming me n said that
Y can't i be more hardworking last time n take 10 subjects
So I can get 10 A'S n get the 100% tuition fees wavier ...
I told her that I dun wanna apply 4 the ASEAN scholarship.
I dun wanna go 2 Singapore 2 study.
This is wad she always say:
So what if u get 9 A's ?
It's not that u're getting 9 A+ or wad?
It's a different story if u get 9A+，
U will have a higher chance!
Ask u 2 be more serious last time n yet u were so lazy...
Watch tv , tv everyday!

ARghhhh!!!!
Tension!
Feel like crying !
Nobody can understand my feelings...
Sometimes
I just feel like sleeping n dun wanna wake up forever n ever...
No matter wad I do,
She just can't understand me...
It's ok,
I tolerate...
I gave up Business Admin n took up Science so I can continue my Degree in Pharmacy as she wants!

BUT My friend keep saying me that I am weak.
Y can't I just be like him n stand 4 my own decision?
I should fight 4 it!
But I have already tried my very best 2 argue with mum
But so what?
She dun wanna listen 2 wad I have said
I dunno y sometimes parents just dun listen 2 their kids n wants us 2 follow their decision?

She feels that money is very important in our lifes
N i'm the one who is supposed 2 earn it 4 them
As much as possible
But as 4 me,
I feel that money isn't everything in our lifes !
We have many things else better 2 do u noe?
My ambition is not 2 earn lots of money...
My purpose of  living is 2 enjoy life!
People that noes me very well,
They knew it.

I'm lost now...
Really really lost...
I need somebody 2 guide me!
But who?
I feel damn helpless.......

I wanna cry...
I lost my target in my life
N I dunno wad is my future going to be...
Will my future just ruin in my own hands?
I can't give an answer...

I hate naggings !!!
Please dun nag me everyday!
I have already grown up n I noe wad I wants!

N now I noe that Parkson is actually very important to be!
I can stay there the whole day...
Work full shift 7 days per week
N I dun wanna go home.........

I dun wanna think about it anymore...
No point living....