Disappointment

I know I've abandoned this blog for months and
Glad to say that I am updating it now
But sad to say that it's gonna be a very negative post.
The title of this post can practically summarize my mood for the past few days.

I know that I have high expectations on people and things and everything I do
And I also know that it's normal when things just don't go as I wish
And certain things are just not meant to be. 
Maybe it's my fault to expect so much at the first place
And maybe I am also wrong to put so much trust in people.

Now I can fully understand that the more you trust, the greater the betrayal.
People just tend to make use of the trust you had in them,
And hurt you without any hesitation.
Friendship just means nothing when it comes to dealing with something that will bring advantages to them.

My thoughts towards people had changed a lot since I started my university life.
I know that I can no longer find genuine friendships when
betrayal, back-stabbing and blackmailing became normal.
You just can't survive if you just remain innocent and naive.
People will make use of you without you realizing.

Sometimes I just feel that I've lost myself.
All the good qualities I used to have just disappear.
Kindness, helpfulness, and generosity can no longer be found.
Maybe these are the sacrifices I made to prevent myself from getting hurt.
Precautions were taken every single day just to avoid people from reading my mind
And attack me through my weaknesses.
But fortunately,
There are people from the other end of Peninsular who kept reminding me of who I really am indirectly.
And I am free to be my true self in front of them.
Without having any thoughts that they might hurt me.
Special thanks to my family, love and friends.

So I think this is what I need to do at this moment before things get any more serious.

I am trying my very best to be positive about life
And hoping that life will be better as the days go by.
Truth be told that it's gonna be hard.
It's not easy to survive in this mini society I am living in right now.

That is why I need to be optimistic and hope for the best.

And all good things come to those who wait.

And I am actually very lucky to have people who love me for who I truly am.

So I will try my very best to not to disappoint them

As I know the feeling of disappointment. 

So instead of being emo about things that happened recently,
I've decided to let go of my sadness and focus on all the positive things the future holds.
I know that this may be hard,
But I believe that once I manage to let go,
I’ll feel much lighter and freer.

A positive quote to end my post.

Be optimistic.
Be positive.
Be happy.














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