Disappointment

I know I've abandoned this blog for months and
Glad to say that I am updating it now
But sad to say that it's gonna be a very negative post.
The title of this post can practically summarize my mood for the past few days.

I know that I have high expectations on people and things and everything I do
And I also know that it's normal when things just don't go as I wish
And certain things are just not meant to be. 
Maybe it's my fault to expect so much at the first place
And maybe I am also wrong to put so much trust in people.

Now I can fully understand that the more you trust, the greater the betrayal.
People just tend to make use of the trust you had in them,
And hurt you without any hesitation.
Friendship just means nothing when it comes to dealing with something that will bring advantages to them.

My thoughts towards people had changed a lot since I started my university life.
I know that I can no longer find genuine friendships when
betrayal, back-stabbing and blackmailing became normal.
You just can't survive if you just remain innocent and naive.
People will make use of you without you realizing.

Sometimes I just feel that I've lost myself.
All the good qualities I used to have just disappear.
Kindness, helpfulness, and generosity can no longer be found.
Maybe these are the sacrifices I made to prevent myself from getting hurt.
Precautions were taken every single day just to avoid people from reading my mind
And attack me through my weaknesses.
But fortunately,
There are people from the other end of Peninsular who kept reminding me of who I really am indirectly.
And I am free to be my true self in front of them.
Without having any thoughts that they might hurt me.
Special thanks to my family, love and friends.

So I think this is what I need to do at this moment before things get any more serious.

I am trying my very best to be positive about life
And hoping that life will be better as the days go by.
Truth be told that it's gonna be hard.
It's not easy to survive in this mini society I am living in right now.

That is why I need to be optimistic and hope for the best.

And all good things come to those who wait.

And I am actually very lucky to have people who love me for who I truly am.

So I will try my very best to not to disappoint them

As I know the feeling of disappointment. 

So instead of being emo about things that happened recently,
I've decided to let go of my sadness and focus on all the positive things the future holds.
I know that this may be hard,
But I believe that once I manage to let go,
I’ll feel much lighter and freer.

A positive quote to end my post.

Be optimistic.
Be positive.
Be happy.














iloveyou.

Teehee

Hey it's another update again!

Yea as you guys know I seldom update my blog. 

So,

When I do...

It's either something big happened or I am very very bored. 

This time it's the latter.

Currently still waiting for love to online so I can chat with him.

*hooray*

Thank God I found something to do to kill time.

Otherwise I will be bored to death.

Just in case you guys are wondering where I am now...

I am in Penang people!

And I am still enjoying my semester break.

But I am a good girl.

*as everyone knows aherm*

I don't just simply spend my 2 and a half months holiday by doing nonsense.

I am a temporary kindy teacher now!

Just a part time job.

And I am very happy to have the chance to become a teacher again!

All the kids, the laughter, the nonsense, the complains, the teacher-you-see-blablabla...

I am very glad to be given the opportunity to experience it again.

=)

Yea I also went down to KL a few weeks ago...

Just for?

S.H.E's 2gether 4ever 2013 concert!!!

It was my first concert and definitely not the last one!

It was indeed an awesome concert.

And I really enjoyed myself there!

To be honest,

I am still in the concert mood.

Non-stop playing of S.H.E's songs.

And also non-stop viewing the concert videos posted up in youtube. 

I bet I am not the only one like this!

To all the S.H.E fans out there,

Lets pray hard that they will come again to Malaysia!

*winks*

Oh oops...

I think that's all for today.

Because love is already online...

I know I am realistic! 

Muahahahahhaa

XP

Goodbyeeeeee!

iloveyou. 

17 months and still counting

It’s the 15^th again and it’s not just another ordinary one.

Yes it’s our 17^th monthsary and it’s also love’s 21^st birthday!

Happy Birthday hiao hiao! XP

Too bad that we don’t get to celebrate it together this year and maybe for the coming three years too.

But all I would like to say is,

Don’t worry dear,

Although I am not there with you,

You know that my heart is always there.

Wherever you go,

Whatever you are doing,

It will be there and will never leave no matter what.

Because it’s yours and will always be. =)

But don’t you dare to throw it aside ar! XP

I will kill you err! =P

This post is specially for you.

It’s your big day and I would like to dedicate this post to you hoping that it will make your 21^st birthday a more memorable one.

Sentimental post will always have two words,

Which are thank you and sorry. =)

Including this post.

Okay,

Lets start.

Made the decision to start this relationship might seem impulsive,

(Because it think I used less than a day to decide?)

But,

It’s a decision I've never regretted,

Not for one moment,

And it made me thankful that I was blessed with such great instinct.

I’m thankful every time you listen when I call you just to complain about those little things.

I’m thankful that you drive me to wherever place I wanted to go.

I’m thankful every time you wrap your arms around me to keep me warm when it’s cold.

And I’m especially thankful that you didn't give up on me, on us, and on our relationship.

Thank you for making me feel that I am the luckiest girl in the whole universe.

Sorry that I like to get angry over small stuffs.

Sorry for waking you up in the middle of your sleep just to tell you nonsense.

Sorry that I do not have much time for you because of my busy schedule.

And also sorry for making you worry and jealous at times.

This might not be a long post,

But this post meant for you contains many loving thoughts and the warmest wishes.

It’s your birthday today and I hope that you will have fun with your family and friends!

Happy birthday once again!

21 years old means?

Old d lah!

Cannot bully me d!

Okay?  =P

Haha.

I appreciate you.

I appreciate your love.

I appreciate everything about you.

We will celebrate your 24^th birthday together okay?

Pinky promise! =)

I love you.

And I miss you baby. 

It's not about the money. It's about the experience.

Yes just like the other universities,
My UMT actually has a lot of happenings too =)
For example,

Banner for the cultural night.

The Chinese Students Representative of UMT is going to organize a cultural night this coming Saturday!
This is actually a yearly event and only the first year students are involved in planning it.
And I am proud to say that I am one of them! =)
I am under the protocol and souvenir team...

Surprising enough huh?
Because previously all I did was complaining about how stressful my life is and now I am joining even more activities to make my life more miserable?
This is because................,
Someone once told me that, your GPA will only get you the interview but your soft skills get you the job.
So, I am actually joining more activities hoping that I can improve my soft skills.

Ya I can't lie about all the extra stress I have been facing in preparing for this event.
Especially recently when the event is only 1 week away.
For example,
Planning the gifts for the guests with limited budget.
Learning the ways the serve the guests with proper manners.
(This might sound easy but we have to be polite throughout the whole event which is actually a very big deal to someone like me)  

But despite all that,
I had lots of fun too!
Just an example which happened recently.
A carnival was organised in order to raise fund for our cultural night.
And I was involved too.
Indirectly.
Our job was simple.
What we need to do is to help our friends from other races to translate their names into Chinese characters and write in calligraphy into bookmarks which only cost RM1!
And the response was seriously overwhelming!
And my job was "pulling" customers, translate their names, promote about our cultural night and also collect S 11 =)
I wasn't involve in the calligraphy part because I know that I will definitely receive complains from the customers because of my ugly handwriting.
So I leave that part to my groupmates.
They are a thousand times better than me.
Haha.

I was happy to see the smile on every customer's face when they received their bookmark with their Chinese names on it.
Especially when they had fun learning how to pronounce it and also writing it.
Laughter from them was a motivation for us to keep working.
They even helped us to promote to their friends too!
So touching.
The bookmark will be kept properly forever as a memory, RM1 is worth, they said.

And I was also happy to work together with all my groupmates.
Not only my groupmates,
But also the other committees who also put a lot of effort to make this whole thing a success!
I will definitely remember all the laughter and fun we shared.
Happy to know a lot of new friends.
From awkwardness to teasing each other.
In only 3 days.
Fast huh?
Haha...
We made a good team I have to say.
We cooperated well. =)
With that,
We earned a lot from the boomark for the cultural night.
Surprisingly!
At least more than we expected.
But it's not about how much money we gained.
It's about what we experienced.
Although the whole process was very tiring,
But all of us,
Every single one of us,
Enjoyed and feel that it's worth it to sacrifice so much just to exchange for the success of our night.

Too bad the carnival is over.
But the good news is we still have another time to work again together.
Which is the cultural night.
Will cherish the moments we are about to spend together.
One week!
Gambateh my friends!
Hope that our friendship will still blossom after everything is over.

Groupmates sekalian =P
*spot my tumbler* =)

I really hope that our cultural night will be as successful as the previous years.
Lets work together and make it happen!
I think that's all for today.
Rest well. =)




















Not forgetting you,
I miss you and
I love you baby. =)

First post in 2013

Dear readers,
It's been a while.
A long while.

Please forgive me for not updating my blog for so long.

Too busy with assignments, presentations, lab reports, tests and etc.

Finally managed to steal some time to post something.

Oh can’t imagine!

Test on the 5^th week?

Don’t even have enough time to study and understand.

Taking 9 subjects in 1 semester is seriously not easy.

Although I managed to survive in my first semester and just for your information,

I am in the second semester now.

But the subjects I am taking this semester are much tougher.

Unlike those subjects in the first semester,

which only involved basic stuffs we used to learn in form 6.

Spending at least 20 hours in classes per week is already very tiring.

Not to say about those endless assignments and lab reports!

One after another!

Can’t believe that I am actually willing to sacrifice my sleep just to finish up those assignments.

Ugh.

Look at those dark circles!

Lack of sleep for almost everyday.

And I don’t even dare to tell my mum about it.

Don’t wanna make her worry.

What a good daughter huh?

*winks*

=)

Erm although sometimes i stay up late just to watch TVD...

~Damon~~~

*blushes* 

Shhhh XP

Just hope that miracle will happen and make those dark circles disappear before I go back to Penang.

Or maybe I should just go get some sunlight and develop a tan.

That would cover the worst of it I guess?

Oh obviously I am just kidding XPP

And I seriously hope that I can cope with all the pressures I am facing right now.

Pressures not only from studies but also problems from daily life.

Such as locking my cupboard with my keys in it.

Stupid enough huh?

That's just an example from last semester. 

Ya I know that I should post this earlier.

Share about how stressful my life is.

But ya,

I have to admit that I was lazy.

Decided to post this just because I was reading my previous posts

And i think it's time

To write something.

I miss my blogging life. 

I am currently in the 9th week of my second semester now.

6 more weeks and this semester will come to an end.

Not only this semester.

But also my freshman year. 

Going to be a senior starting from the next semester.

Although this sounds sad.

But no worries.

Sometimes it is not a bad thing when something comes to an end.

End of second semester.

Meaning?

SEM BREAK!

Can't wait for my 2 and a half months of sem break! 

I think that's all for today.

Stay tuned. 

Bye.

imissyou.

iloveyou.