Something everyone might have known long long ago but I really experienced it thoroughly today.
I suddenly realized that no matter how much effort you put to help people during their miserable times or just a simple motivation when they have a bad day will eventually turns out to be nothing.
Yes.
I love to help.
I love to help without expecting anything in return.
This is because I know how awful it feels to be helpless.
I've been through that kind of situation numerous times and I know that the disability to seek help when you need it most, sucks.
I don't want people to feel like how I feel.
I feel happy whenever I get the chance to make people's life easier even that means sacrificing my beautiful sleep.
And from the bottom of my heart, it's true.
But today,
I learnt that people will not treat you like how you treat them.
I don't expect much.
I just wanna treated kindly and without cruelty.
I just want to be given respect, not insulted.
And I just want others to treat me with dignity.
But what I got is people taking advantage of me.
People take me for granted.
People making fun of me.
And nobody appreciates.
Sometimes I can't even differentiate whether the thank you i got is even sincere or not.
So, I start to doubt.
Is being good the correct thing to do?
I am so sick of being treated like a doormat by people that I try so hard to be kind to.
Maybe I should really treat myself better because I deserve better.
iloveyou.
iloveyou.
