High School

After watching the movie 'You are the apple of my eye',

I came to realise that my high school life was also very interesting.

Just like the movie.

A lot of things happened,

No matter happy or sad,

Those things were the things that let me grow up.

So, I decided to blog about some interesting stuffs that happened when I was in Penang Free School.

Although high school had just ended,

But all the memories that I had together with all of u will be in my heart.

Forever.

And ever.

Entering PFS was the first time for me to study in a co-ed school.

*besides kindergarden*

That was the first time in my life to spend my every single day with guys.

I spend my 11 years of primary school and secondary school life only with girls!

GIRLS!

That why I was kinda quiet when I first entered that school.

Becoz I really have no idea of how to communicate with guys.

That's y I chose to talk less and observe more.

Look around and understand the people around me more before being too close to them.

I always stick with my girls gang and I will always let them do the talking.

All I need to do is to smile.

Maybe it's becoz I am a person who is quite hard to adapt to a new environment.

I need time...

I am quite scared of strangers.

I dun like to talk in front of strangers.

That's why people who dun know me will say that I am a very quiet person.

And ya.

Actually I am not.

After being in that school for a few weeks,

I start to feel comfortable with the environment there.

And I am very glad that I actually took part in the play.

'The King And I'.

That play gave me a chance to mix around with people

And to communicate with people that I dun really know.

After that play,

I start to talk a lot.

And I start to bully the guys around me.

And now when I think back,

I will feel that,

Ok,

Why was I so childish?

N i still remember that I used to have a nickname called...

Ahem....

TOMMY!

Do you know why?

I think it's becoz I am the most boyish girl among them

N I act like a boy.

But I love being like that!

No one can stop me! XP

LOL!

PFS organised another play too this year.

Called

'The Beauty and The Beast'.

I was the backsatge crew.

N I really had lots of fun with the scouts there.

Although all the kids there that call me mama makes me feel old,

But still they were the ones who gave me the best memories during the play.

Not to say that I wanna act young or wad,

*ya i noe that i am going to be 20 next year*

But I really love mixing around with kids.

They are naive, innocent, and ya.

They are harmless.

I can be myself when I am with them.

Then I had a very unforgettable 18th birthday last year.

Thanks to a bunch of friends who had a surprise party for me.

Although I didnt cry lah,

But I was really touched.

N I really appreciate it a lot.

Studying in a co-ed school,

There is one thing that we cant avoid.

RUMORS.

N we called that LUNA.

*n i still dunno the reason behind the word luna*

We even have a LUNA master named Joshua who got himself luna-ed with a girl too this year.

LOL!

Ok n one of my LUNA experience is this.

I decided to mention it here becoz that was a very fun yet interesting LUNA experience.

There is this one guy in my school

Who likes to argue with me a lot.

N i dunno why!

We didn't talk much last year although we were in the same class.

But I dunno why we will start to argue when we see each other this year when we r in diff classes.

N I seriously cannot remember how n when all this started.

We can argue about anything n everything.

After argue-ing for some time,

People started to LUNA us.

N both of us will purposely unite to create more rumors.

That process was very fun.

N I seriously didn't expect that the rumors will come true one day.

N now,

He's my <3

Last time I used to thought that all this will only happen in dramas.

Becoz u know,

In most of the dramas the main actor n main actress will fight with each other at first then only they will be together at last.

Ya. 

N that was exactly what happened to me n him.

Besides that,

I also have my own gossip gang in school.

My girls who will always provide me with new things that happened in school.

Although we r from diff classes n yet we can still be very very good friends n I really appreciate the friendship between us.

My only girlfriend in my class also gave me a lot of memories.

The friendship between both of us cannot be expressed by word.

Sometimes I will feel that,

We r just like twins.

We can noe wad each other is thinking about without saying a word.

I spend most of my time with her in school n even in tuition classes.

We can laugh like nobody's business n people often call us siao char bor...

There is also this girl who is very important to me.

She often call me her husband.

*blushes*

 I really wanna thank her for being there for me no matter whether I am happy or sad.

High school life wouldn't be so interesting without you.

And also ya,

I took part in lots of cocurricular activities.

Especially Chinese Cultural Society.

I spend lots of time and effort for that society.

It's also a society that gave me a chance to dance.

N a chance for me to be a leader.

A chance for me to organise activities.

I also have a bunch of friends who called us their cargoes...

N we called them our drivers.

They will never say no when we ask them for help when we got no transport.

I wanna say thank you once again to them.

THANK YOU.

I really appreciate u all.

ALL the times that spend with all of u in school,

Even outings,

Will forever be in my mind.

I am a person who dun really know how to express my gratitude towards the people around me.

The only thing that I know is to say thank you. 

I also dun really like to be too close to people.

I dun like to be a super glue or something lidat.

Hmm,

I dunno,

I just feel that it's very awkward to do so.

But deep inside my heart,

I thank all of you for making my life so beautiful.

Seriously.

Penang Free School is a place that I will forever remember.

A place that I fell down,

N it's also a place that gave me another chance to stand up.

Another chance to meet the correct person in my life.

= )

ilovehighschool.

ilovepiglet.

iloveyou.

Lalala~ Dream~

Yay!

Times flies...

STPM is going to end soon...!

Although we still have 2 more papers to go,

But I am already acting like as if STPM is over d...

Got nothing to do that's why I decided to blog about something.

LOL!

Ok,

I am going to blog about my dream today.

It's just a very simple dream.

My dream is to grow up faster,

And earn a lot a lot of money,

So that I can go around the world to help those who are in need.

I know that my strength will be very limited

And

I also know that it's not easy to do so,

But,

I really hope that their life will be better with my presence.

I wanna make a difference.

I want them to know that there are still people who cares for them,

There is still a reason for them to continue living in this world.

Being unfortunate is not their fault.

And we shouldn't discriminate them.

As for now,

I am still a student,

I can't help them financially.

But I feel that doing charity is not only about the money.

Is the heart.

Peple have feelings.

They will feel it if you are really sincere.

Just help without hoping for anything in return.

It's also a type of happiness.

I am still a teenager.

I can't do much.

That's why I can only start from helping the people around me.

Although I understand that it's kinda frustrating when people do no appreciate your effort

But,

It's ok as long as we play our own part well.

Do not care about what the others think about you.

Just do whatever you want.

As long as you know that,

Yes.

That's the right thing to do.

Why be selfish when you have the chance to be kind?

To be honest,

I really hate people who only care for themselves.

But it's ok.

Just continue to be like this.

Do not blame the others if they dun help you when you need help.

There is this NGO in Malaysia called the

KECHARA SOUP KITCHEN

I am not sure whether you guys have heard about it or not,

But this is one of the successful examples of people that have the same dream as me.

KECHARA SOUP KITCHEN is a Community Action Group,

Which consists of volunteers from all walks of life distributing food to the homeless and urban poor in the heart of Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.

The theme of this organisation is 'Hunger knows no barrier'

Too bad that it's in KL,

Or else I will surely volunteer myself to help them. 

There is also another organisation called WORLD VISION 

World Vision Malaysia (WVM) began in 1997 as a Support Office with the aim of raising funds for and awareness of needy children and communities overseas.

WORLD VISION will organise this activity called the famine 30 every year.

Famine 30 is a activity that will gather people from all around Malaysia at different spots in Malaysia and those participants are going to fast for 30 hours.

The main theme of that activity is to raise fund to help the poor and to let fortunate people in Malaysia to experience hunger.

WORLD VISION will also organise trips to the third world countries and allow volunteers to join so that they can go there to understand the life of the unfortunates and also to help them to go through all the hard times.

We can also adopt a child from the poor countries with only RM50 per month.

Imagine that,

Only RM50 can change a person's life.

Maybe to some of us,

RM50 is just a small amount.

But to them,

It's not.

RM50 a month is already enough for them to have the life that they want.

As I am one day older,

I am one step closer to my dream.

I hope that I can be a part of these organisations.

That's why I need to work harder,

And have a stable income,

So that my dream will come true.

Looking forward into my life in the future.

Because I know that my life is going to be very meaningful.

I will also be happy by making the others happy.

Ok,

That's all for today.

Remember,

Helping people brings no harm,

So start to help people around you from now onwards.

You will be happier.

Trust me.

=]

Bye.

ilovepiglet.

December

Saw the title?
Yes.
December.
Hope that the worst month in 2010 will turn out to be the best in 2011.
One year has passed.
December is here again.
I used to hope that I can turn back time and go back to December to make things right.
But now,
I am actually glad that I dun have the ability to do that.
Because I love my life now...!
=]

Ok enough.
Lets talk about STPM.
4 down, 4 more to go.
Time flies.
14 more days to freedom!
Although I know that didnt do well in the previous papers,
But I will not give up!
I will work harder so that I can get a better grade for maths!
So that maybe I can be a mathematician in the future or something like that.
LOL!
No worries.
Let bygones be bygones.
Got lots of great plannings for my life after STPM!
Gonna enjoy life before going to uni!
=]

Jia you!
Bye!






ilovepiglet.

When she was young.

Let me share a story with you guys.
It's just a story.

Long long time ago,
There was a boy and a girl who were in love with each other.
That was the first time for the girl to fall in love with someone.
She gave her heart to the boy.
She was very sure that the boy is the one she is looking for.
God let them meet.
Fate brought them together.

But,
One day,
The boy told the girl that he has to leave her.
For a reason.
The girl accepted.
She had to.
Although she doesn't want to.
The boy said that he loves her and he left her.
The girl was naive.
She doesn't know what to do.
So,
The girl cried.
Over and over again.
But in her heart,
She still believes that the boy will be back,
One day.

She was waiting for the day to come.
Patiently.
Until one day.
The boy fell in love with another girl.
The reason the boy told her when he left her turned out to be a lie.
The girl cant't believe that the boy that she trusted the most would lie to her.
The girl was disappointed.
So,
She took her heart back.

From that time onwards,
She locked up her heart.
She will never allow people to hurt it anymore.
She lost all her trust towards all the boys out there.
But she was lucky.
Lucky to have a bunch of good friends around her.
Friends that will always be ready to face all the problems together with her.

But the girl doesnt hate the boy.
In fact she thank him.
Thank him for hurting her so deeply.
Because of the boy,
The girl grew up a lot.
She learn how to appreciate and love the people around her more.
She promised to herself.
That she will never repeat that mistake ever again.

And now the girl is no longer a girl.
All that she went through made her a lady now.
She's not as naive as last time.
Her feelings towards the boy faded.
But in deep in her heart,
She didn't blame the boy.
Because she realised that,
He didn't make any promises that he will stay with her forever.

The boy has his own life now.
And she has hers too.
Both of them are now back to point when they do not know each other.
She will forever remember the boy no matter where she goes.
The boy that changed her life.




Yes.
She loved him.
But,
She will find her happiness one day.
I believe that you will, lady.
Find a man instead of a boy.
A man who deserves you.






I love you lady.
And I really do.



ilovepiglet.

Countdown!

Dear readers,
If you are the one who is taking STPM this year,
Please kindly switch off your computer and start studying after viewing this post.
Thank you.
LOL!
Sound serious rite?
You know WHY?
I have got only 56 days left to STPM!
56!!!!
Less than 2 months!
Imagine that....!
Ya I admit...
I got a lot to study and yet I am still here updating my blog...
Very naughty...
Lol...!
But no worries...
It's only a 5-minute post...
Just wanna remind you guys to study study study!
Only for 3 months!
Then it's freedom people!
STPM AIN'T A GAME...!
It's about our future!
Gambateh!
Good luck!
Happy studying! =]





Thanks!
ilovepiglet.

I am sorry.

People often say that rejection hurts.

And I know that too.

Although I don't have the experience confessing to guys that I used to like.

But…

I really don't mean to hurt you guys.

I love my life now.

I am very satisfied with everything that i am having now.

I can't just accept you just because I am touched right?

What's the point of me accepting you just because you treat me very nicely but I don't love you in return?

There's no point.

I don't wanna give you temporary happiness.

I will be honest.

Not ready means not ready.

I do not wanna tell you about it only after we are together for a short while.

Like 1 week? 2 weeks?

That will hurt even more.

Not only one party but both.

A person's heart is like a bubble when they are in love.

Especially first love.

Pure and naive.

I know that.

I had been hurt doesnt mean that I have to go around to hurt more people in order to make them feel like what I feel right?

I don't wanna leave any trauma for you.

I still wanna make you believe that true love really exist.

I do not want you to pay for another guy's mistake.

And I do not want another girl to pay for my mistake too.

I reject just to hope that you can stop wasting time on me.

Go for another better girl.

A girl who is more suitable for you.

You might feel that you love me more than other guys did.

You might feel that you will take care of me,

Protect me,

So that I won't be sad forever.

But what is love if it's only one-sided?

I appreciate all that.

I really do.

It's very touched to know that there's a guy who treasure you when there's another guy who treats you like a rubbish.

But do you think it's fair to you?

I am a person who thinks that feeling is very important in a relationship.

I do not have the special feeling towards you.

It's not that you are not good.

Every guy is good in different ways.

But I am sorry.

I enjoy being single.

Adding another person into your life is like adding another burden.

I prefer being alone,

More freedom.

I am so sorry to hurt you.

Just say that I am stupid because I do not know how to appreciate a person like you.

U can blame me.

But I really dont wanna cheat on people's feelings.

You will find a better girl who knows how to appreciate you in the future.

You will.

Sorry.

ilovepiglet.

Relationship?

I am very glad that you had finally found someone better to take care of you.

Please treat her better than how you treated me.

Because every girl deserves a chance to be loved.

Not to be hurted.

As for all the lies that made me a fool,

I will forgive but I will never forget.

They will always be in my heart to remind me to not to trust guys that easily.

Thanks for proving to me that I was wrong.

I used to thought that you are different.

But as time goes by,

It's proven that all guys are the same.

Although we used to agree that we will still continue to be friends,

We used to tell each other that we will still talk,

But it's not easy to do so.

WHY?

Because,

U changed,

I changed,

We changed.

Topics that used to be between us just disappear,

And we will never find them back.

Never.

As for people out there who cares about my relationship status,

I would like to say that

I am single and unavailable.

I do not wanna think about all this at the moment.

I cannot afford my mood to be affected by all this before STPM.

Besides that,

I think I am not suitable to be in a relationship at this age

Because I am still not mature enough.

I am too childish.

Maybe I will wait till I am older.

I want a relationship that can last.

I do not want my next to be my ex.

As for the people around me who is in a relationship,

I hope that u guys will cherish those moments with your love ones.

Appreciate the ones who love you

As it's not easy to find someone

Who loves you and you loves him/her back.

Do not give up yout relationship just because of some small misunderstandings.

Try to tolerate and go on.

And as for people who is still trying hard to go after your dream guy/girl,

Good luck!

I am very happy with my life now.

I have my girlfriends around me.

Girlfriends who will always be there for me no matter what.

The most important thing is to enjoy yout life.

And be yourself.

To be accepted by the society is to be genuine.

Moving on was hard,

At times it seems unbearable.

Time has now healed the pain,

And I think of him I smile instead of cry.

He will always have a special place in my heart.

I had known pain.

I learned to know joy.

Life is never easy but it's still good.

Love someone is hard but love yourself is harder.

Always remember

Love life.

=]

Thank you.

ilovepiglet.

Trust

Look at the title of this post again .
Yes.
The topic today is about trust.
No doubt.
Trust between people and people is very important.
Trust can make things easier.
Trust can simplify everything that you are doing right now.
Trust can make life better.
Maybe I should learn how to trust people more.

After working so hard,
I finally understand that
Y am i so tired doing all the work by myself.
Maybe it's because of my horoscope,
Or maybe it's because of my personality.
I tend to have high expectations on people when I have a task for them to complete.

Virgo,
A virgo wants everything to be perfect.
In short,
A virgo is a perfectionist.
That is also I prefer to do everything on my own.
People just can't reach my expectations.
Only me myself knows what i really want.
That is why I dun really wanna ask other people to do work.
This is my principle in life.
I rather depend on myself rather than asking for help.
Yes.
I know.
I am very stubborn.
This is also why people just cant get along with me.
As for now,
I understand that no matter how much you do,
No matter how much effort you put in,
People just cant see that.
Now i finally understand that
Y people just like to tell the others what they've done.
It's not because that person wants to boast around.
It's just that that person hope that he can be recognized by the others.
People do not appreciate what you have done,
People will just put all the blame on you when there's something wrong.
People who doesnt understand how you feel will also come to sprinkle salt onto your wound.
Everyone has their different ways of doing things.
You just cant expect everyone to be like you.
You must try to accept.
It's not that everything that other people do differently as the way you did is wrong.
Just like love.
“Just because somebody doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with everything they got”

Maybe i shouldnt continue to be like this.
I should learn how to trust people more.
Give them chance for them to prove me wrong.
They can do it too.
Sometimes
I just feel that,
People shouldnt comment much about things they dont know.
Look into the mirror.
Think about what you have done.
Do you have the right to comment about other people when you yourself cant even do things well?
People should just appreciate things around them.
Life is simple.
Why must everything be so complicated?
NO one is perfect.

Trust more.
That will make the world a better place.
Appreciate more.
That will make people feel some sense of belonging.
Tolerate more.
That will reduce frictions between people and people.
Forgive more.
“To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you.”
At last,
Love more.
It's because,
"Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that.
Just like,Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that.” 

Thank you.

Bye bye.
ilovepiglet.