Please do not blame me.

I am getting more and more antisocial these few days.
N I think I know y.
Or maybe not.
I am tired of things that happened in my life.
Misunderstandings come after one another.
People just refuse to talk to me without any specific reasons.
Even if there is,
How come people just do not wanna tell me about my mistakes?
Being childish is just not the correct way to solve problems.
No one can help u guys if u guys continue to be like this.
I have done my part.
I talked to u.
I gave u chance.
But so sorry.
No more second chance for u if u do not wanna appreciate it.
I started to talk to u first doesn't mean that I was wrong.
Doesn't mean that ure important in my life.
Doesn't mean that I can't live without u.
It's just becoz of one simple reason.
This year is our last year in high school.
I dun wanna leave any regrets after i graduate.
I do not wanna have any bad memories about high school.
I wan to have all the nice memories in my head like wad i had in my secondary school.
We might not have chance to meet each other again after we graduate.
I just dun wanna regret remembering that I dun appreciate my high school friends after Ive grown up.

YA.
I hope that I will still be safe after saying this.
Since only u girls will read about my updates rite?
OK...
I REALLY THINK THAT GUYS ARE REALLY TROUBLESOME!
Created lots of probs for me.
How I wish I can go back to my life without having any guys around me.
That's also another reason for me to be so antisocial.
I just wanna mix around with my girlfriends.
Girls can still stand strong without guys.
In fact they will live a better life without you guys.

I am tired.
I am seriously tired.
Things that happened in school everyday.
I am getting more and more tired about my life in school everyday.
Going to school is like a torture to me now.
Goes to school.
Looking at all the faces.
Those faces that I would wanna give a slap on it.
U noe wad??!!!
I was not born to be treated like this.
I have my own feelings too.
Having a life without u will just make my life better.
Nothing much.
So please do not act like I need u to survive.
I did nothing wrong.
To me ure just a piece of shit.
It's not that I wanna be harsh to you.
But I am seriously pissed off.
There's no point for u to continue living in this earth if u can't accept other people's comment about u.
I noe that everyone is not perfect.
But.
Everyone can try their best to improve themselves to be a better person.
My patience has its limits too.
So do not think that I am very nice to be bullied if I did not do anything to you.
I seriously dunno wad will I do if I am mad.
But u know urself well.
Please use ur brain to think.
If u do not have one,
Then please get urself one asap.

Keeping quiet doesn't mean that i dun noe anything.
I just wanna make things better.
I am not scared of u.
And I am not a hypocrite.
I am just not childish as u.

Please do not blame me if i turn into another person one day.
Please remember that u guys were the one who cause me to be like that.
I have to be stronger in order to overcome all that.
I am just an ordinary girl.
Wad do u wan from me?
Do not blame me if i do anything against u one day.
Ure the cause of it.

Now that I have decided to focus on my studies.
I dun wanna care about all that anymore.
U guys might say that I am kiasu now.
But I dun care.
Laugh at me as much as u can now.
Becoz u will never have the chance to do so next time when i am more successful than u.
Future is more important to me now.

So this is my life.
Sometimes i will also wonder.
Will my life be better now if I chose to leave last time?
Maybe ya.
Maybe not.

As a conclusion,
I am tired.
Both physically n mentally.

But no matter wad,
I still love u girls a lot.
Thanks for being there for me when I am down.

Bye~
ilovepiglet.

Changes in my life

It has been ages since i updated my blog.
Sorry to keep u all waiting
And i wanna thank everyone who still care about me.

Just wanna post a short post here.
So that u guys will noe wad is happening to me now...
I am still here ppl...!
I didn't update doesn't mean that i disappeared ya...
LOL...

Ok...
My life is still as good as last time..
Just that ive gone through a lot for the past few months...
It took me some time to actually walk out from the shadow..
But I need to admit that i am still not fully recovered...
It's not easy to let go...
Everything just happened in a sudden...
I dun even have the chance to prepare to face it...
First time for me to handle all these...
But no worries...
Ive gone through everything...
BRAVELY.
Yes.
I am more mature now...
Not as naive as last time...
Will not be as stupid as last time...
Ive grown up.
Experiences told me that
Never make someone a priority in ur life when ure just an option in his/her life.
Learnt my lesson.
Thank you.
I dun blame anyone.
I can only blame myself.
But I am stronger now.
I can take care of myself.
I will not allow anyone to hurt me.
This is a promise to myself.
BUT.
I KNOW.
I AM NOT ALONE.
I got my family, my friends...
They will always be there for me.
And also thanks to them...
I managed to face all the problems bravely.
No worries.
I will not disappoint u all.
All I wanna do now is to do well in my studies.
Enter a good university.
N I will meet more people there.
Better people maybe?
I cannot turn back time.
I can only just go on and on and on.
My future is in my hand.
I will be a better me.
I love u all...!
Tata...!


Just like last time,
ilovepiglet.

Long time no see~

Hey hey hey!!!!!!!!!!
It has been ages since the last time i update my blog....
So sorry friends....
Can't really find time to blog
Lets me just tell u guys briefly about things that happened recently....

Firstly,
Co curriculum Day....
We,
The members of Chinese Cultural Society
Are going to perform a dance on that day....
Unbelievable right???
Chiew Hoong is going to dance again!!!!!
Haha.....
Can't wait for that day to come....
19th of October,
Here I come!

Secondly,
The part I hate the most.....!
End year exam!
Ish.....
Lots of thing to study...
And I am still blur blur here....
Dun really have confidence to finish up the syllabus...
But it is ok!
I will definitely try my best to do well!
I will kill u!
END YEAR EXAM!!!
Wait for me!!!
25th of October!!!

Third,
Joelle and me planned to go back to CGL this Friday!
Which is the 22nd of October....
Miss CGL a lot...
The food, the teachers, juniors, and etc etc etc....
Anyone interested to follow???
Kindly text me about it an we shall go back together!!!
LOLS...

Fourth,
Let talk about my mood nowadays....
Guess what???
I AM HAPPY.....!
Haha...
Maybe u guys can ask me personally about what am I happy about lah....
XP
Hope everyone's mood is the same as mine!
As I always say,
Be happy so u can look younger!
Agree?

Last but not least,
Halloween!!!!
Girlfriends-girlfriends sekalian!!!!!!
Wanna go redbox again???
Haha....
Remember what happened last time?
OMG....
Laugh alive me!!!!
Wanna experience it again?
I want!
I miss u girls seriously.....
T.T

Ok I think that's all for today....
Next post will be after my exam I guess...

Bye bye people!
ilovepiglet

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

Hey Hey Hey There!!!!!!!!

What is the date for today?

Today is my big day!!!

Happy Birthday to me!!!

=]

My previous post is all about the birthday celebration by my classmates+some pfs friends

So now,

Just wanna blog a little bit about the birthday surprise by my beloved girlfriends!!!!

9/9/10

(A very romantic date…..)

Early early in the morning….

Which is 11am…

Woke up to prepare to meet up with my girlfriends

And I seriously miss them a lot

A lot a lot a lot!!!!!!!

So, the siao chabo,

Soon Lily went to fetch hiao hiao,

Loh Quah then only came to my house to pick me up.

After that,,,,,,,,,

We headed to e-gate!

And as u guys noe,

e-gate is very near to my house.

Just  5 minutes drive…

Got lots of shoplots there,

Got nice nice food too!

But the price is definitely not cheap

So dun go there too often

Or else u will be like me!

Having very serious financial crisis….

Which is definitely not a good thing..

HAHA.

OK,

Back to the topic ok?

We reached there around 1 o’clock

And we actually decided to go to our ‘lau di fang’

The place that we had a lot of memories together last time…

NOODLES STATION!!!

Haha….

Had some chatting session there

Took quite a number of pics

And some siao siao videos!

And my darlings actually gave me a surprise!

The point is not about the cake they gave me!

The main thing is how they gave me the cake!

Guess what?

They actually dropped the whole cake on the floor

And three of us,

Laughed like mad people!!!

People around us were like looking at us

But who cares!

Still continue laughing!!!!!!

Picked up the cake from the floor,

Thank God it was protected by the box

Or else I dun dare to imagine d loh!!!!

And they actually realised that they forgot to bring lighter…

So we just acted…

As if the candles are lighted…

Made a wish…

Blew the candles!

Haha….

But thank you darlings!

Seriously!

I LOVE U!

SOON LILY

AND

JAMIE LOH QUAH

Not forgetting

KHOO POH EAN

Although u cannot join us for the so called gathering

BUT I STILL LOVE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And my two other darlings !!!!

MAK MAK!!!!!

AND

AH HUI!!!!

I sound so hiao!!!

Haha!

I really miss those days we were together

Siao-ing around in school….

Not only in school,

But tuition centre,

Each other’s house,

And other places lah!!!!

Siao+retarded people like us,

Can siao di mana-mana saja!

HAHA!

I really hope to meet up with u girls really soon!

Start to miss u all d lah!

How ar?

Later I cannot sleep, cannot eat, cannot drink…….

U girls have to be responsible ya?

I dun care!!!!

Anyways,

A VERY BIG THANK YOU

To u girls….

Thanks for remembering my birthday

Thanks for buying me a birthday cake

Thanks for making my 18^th birthday an unforgettable one

Thanks for giving me such good memories

Thanks for EVERYTHING

EACH and EVERYTHING

That u girls did for me!

I wanna be with u girls forever!

BUT………………………………

We got our own dreams

Own studies……

Just hope that all of ALL OF US

Can really succeed in our lifes

I have faith in u all…..

Really.

Ok lah,

I think that’s all for today!

Thank you once again.

Bye~

My birthday celebration =]

Date : 8^th of September 2010

Day : Wednesday

Time : 10.10 am

Weather : Sunny + Cloudy

Mood : Happy =]

The beginning of the story.

This is wad happened.

*Few days ago*

Nian Qi : Hey I ter-exchanged my physics with yours.

Me : Oh really. Oops. I never noticed! HAHA.

Nian Qi : Oh it is ok…. I think I am going to my aunty’s hse this wed. Maybe I can get it from u.

Me : Aiyaa…. It is ok. I can pass it to u on Sunday wad. Dun have to be so mahuan.

Nian Qi : Oh it is ok. I can get it from u since I am going to that area wad. I am very free during the hols lah. Got nth to do so I think I wanna revise….!

Me : Oh then ok loh.

Nian Qi : Most probably morning lah.

Me: Huh??????????? Morning???????? Not too early ya.

Nian Qi : About 10 o’clock lah.

Me : Okok. No problem.

*WEDNESDAY*

Woke up at 9.30am.

……………But still sleepy

Brushed my teeth and get everything done,

Then I think think think,

Should I wear pyjamas or wad?

Oh nvm.

I should change.

Nian Qi only rite?

Simply wear can d lah.

Dun mind.

So I just simply grabbed a shirt and shorts from my cupboard.

Then I simply tied my hair.

Sitting down on my sofa,

Waiting patiently for Nian Qi’s sms.

*SMS received*

Nian Qi : I am here already. I am at ur swimming pool now. Can u come down now?

Me : Okok. No problem.

Then I was telling my sis,

‘ Hey I go down and get sth from Nian Qi ar. She is very funny loh. Wait for me at the swimming pool there. Wait in the car can d mah. So hardworking. Parking summore. ‘

‘ Swimming pool….?  Ask her to come up lah. ‘

‘ Dun wan lah. Thought she is very free ar?!!! ‘

Grabbed my keys,

Opened the door,

Took the lift,

Headed to the swimming pool.

Nian Qi : Hey. Morning!

Me : MORNING! Aiyaa. U should wait at ur car outside. Then I get it from u can d mah.

Nian Qi : OH nvm lah. Easier for u wad.

Me : Oh….. Hey ur book. *SAT DOWN* Went to ur aunty’s hse d?

Nian Qi : Ya.

Me : So not going anywhere? Today damn bored ar. No where to go. Sien.

Nian Qi : Haha. Going u wanna go anywhere isit? Come lah. I got car. I drive u lah!

Me : Nolah nolah. Was just kidding lah. No place to go also.

Nian Qi : Go Tesco lah!

Me : Haha! Dun wan lah! But 2mr I will be very busy lah. Going out the whole day. Got ttn summore! Haha. Meeting up with friends. U noe lah. So long didn’t c d! Sure got lots of things to talk one!!!! I dun think we have enough time to talk also err! Will be meeting them for like 4 hours?

Nian Qi : Huh? 4 hours ar? Haha….

Me : Yalah… Becoz ar, u noe ppl………..(telling my story halfway)

SUDDENLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SUDDENLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SUDDENLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A bunch of ppl came out from the bush?

With guitars, birthday cake, present…………?

Singing birthday song!

I was shocked!

Literally shocked!!!!!!

And surprised……! =]

Really one…..

The first thing I think of is not anything

BUT my clothes!

I dressed like an aunty!

OMG!

I no face d lah I tell u!

Then I was speechless.

Looking at all of them….

Smiling….

I dunno wad to say….

I really dunno wad to say……

I dunno how to describe that kind of feeling lah….

I was very very touched.

But I can’t cry.

I dunno y.

I didn’t even suspect anything before that.

That means it was very successful.

And a lot of ppl came….

THANK YOU

REALLY REALLY THANK YOU…..!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks for sacrificing ur time.

So,

They sang the birthday song again...

And we sang it to Elaine too!!!!!

After that,

All of them went up to my house.

I called and asked my sis to clean the hse first obviouslyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

LOLS.

So HIAO POH cut the cake in pieces,

Each and everyone took a piece and started eating.

So they started to play around

After finishing the chocolate banana cake.

Then I opened the presents,

The first one was a hard disk!

The second one was a piglettttttttttttt!

CUTE!

LOLS!!!!!!!!!!

I like both of the presents.

Sorry that my house is kinda small.

Can’t really fit all of u

So some of u actually need to sit on the floor.

So sorry.

So,

They started to play guitar,

Sing songs,

AND started to perli each other with the LUNA thingy!

EXAMPLE.

QUAHLALA

QUAHJOELLE

LAMANG

Etc etc etc.

So we play play play

Spent around 2 hours at my house

Then we headed to BASKIN ROBBINS!

Quah Jit Shen is chia-ing everyone!

But at last,

We decided to have our lunch at Pizza Hut!

So,

We had 4 large pizzas and 3/4 jugs of………(pepsi?)

Took some pics there…..

As usual,

We made a lot of noise.

Chit chat a lot!

Laughed like mad people……

THEN SEMUA ORANG BALIK KE RUMAH MASING-MASING.

BTW,

THANK YOU JIT SHEN FOR CHIA-ING!

As a conclusion,

I had a very great day today.

U guys really did a good job.

Wanna say a lot of things but……

Besides

Thank you is thank you

Thanks for everything.

THANKS FOR THE PRESENTS!

I admit that I am touched.

SERIOUSLY.

THANK YOU JOELLE

THANK YOU NIAN QI

THANK YOU LALA

THANK YOU ELAINE

THANK YOU JIT SHEN

THANK YOU ADRIAN

THANK YOU BROTHER

THANK YOU YAN WEI

THANK YOU JOSHUA

THANK YOU HERR BERT

THANK YOU NEOH

THANK YOUUU!!!!

The thing that I am going to say is

I never knew that I meant so much to u all

I used to doubt whether I am important to u guys

But now,

U guys gave me the answer.

Finally I can feel that

I actually got some sense of belonging.

U guys did everything just because of me.

Sometimes I will think whether I worth all that or not.

I dun think I am a good friend

And yet u guys r willing to put effort to celebrate my birthday for me.

Actually,

U guys dun have to treat me so good u noe?

I will feel guilty sometimes.

I did nothing for u all

But u guys……

=]

It is not that I am not happy,

I am very happy that u guys did all that for me.

Gave me a very unforgettable 18^th birthday.

I LOVE U GUYS!

Seriously.

=]=]=]=]=]=]=]=]=]=]=] 11 smileys for all of u!

I hope that all of us can celebrate everyone’s birthday together.

BYE~